I am so sorry I ever questioned you being a blessing, Baby V.
Mommy will love you forever. I will keep the names we thought up for you and pass them on if we are lucky enough to get pregnant again, someday.
I wish I could stop this process. Heal you, whatever it would take.
I know you would have been a beautiful and amazing baby boy or girl, just like your two big sisters.
They were so excited when we found out about you. Almost everyone was.
You were likely going to be the last baby I ever had. But I promise, I won't give up now. I won't be scared. I'll make you proud.
Every time I think that I'm fine, or that the worst is over, the tears start all over again.
I love you, Baby V. I know Daddy does, too.
I'm trying to be ok, it's just hard... I wish I had been able to watch you grow, get to know you, name you. Hold you someday...
I hope that your next life gets a chance to truly begin.
I love you so much.
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